today spent my day rotting at home again..
watching tv,,playing computer&psp whole day..
after that went for a run..
life today is just bored bored bored!!!

seem so near yet so far,,regret for all my action..

today,,went grandpa hse
reach liao,, went out for a ride with cousinz..
went back eat,,den go home..

wanting to know the answer very much,,hais

wah,,today spent my day rotting at home lah..ZzZ..sibei sian..tmrw must find something to do liao..

im still looking for the answer,,but its no where to be seen..

HOHOHO!!!today dam fucking happy sia,,cos event was pack from morning till night..hahas..morning went to sing K with my cliques,,at bugis the TOPONE KTV,,nvr hear before..lols..the room is nice and so special that got smoke and light effect de..and I enjoy the time eating strudel with xiao mei,,though it was short,,but i think was the happiest moment during the K session,,and we chatted quite alot of things..hahas..den halfway through went to meet grace..meet her for movie and dinner,,we watch WANTED,,the show was quite nice,,cos the storyline is so unimaginable,,hahas,,duno how to say..LOLS..after that went to have a walk around CWP and went pastamania eat,,eat until lose appetite,,cos it was too cheesy..went home after that,,cos she still got sch tmr,,whereby im still having holi tmrw..muahaha..reach home,,mummy told mie my grandpa maybe can discharge tmrw liao..so today was like dam fucking happy day for mie lah..muahaha..hahas..

today woke up ESP early lah,,all bcos of melvin fault,,early morning msg mie, ask mie wake up and be on time and he was late for near to 30 mins lah..TMD..after that went RP,,find asyraf,,wait for him and left for NYP..goin to NYP is just isnt my day lah..TMD,,was question by all the lecturers there,,neh neh..after that went home,,and left house again with sis for a run..and have crabby and kim chi soup dinner..was so delicious lah..hahas..thats all..didnt visit my ah gong today..lols,,will visit him friday bahx,,cos this few days pack with frens..

insomnia is here again,,means trouble is here again..i hate it..cant solve my own problem,,but can solve my fren problem..WHY??

just some photo to share:

went to visit grandpa today,,and i finally know what happened from my uncle liao..hope he will be fine and discharge soon..

confused confused..god help mie..im fading away..

duno what to say,,only wish to say,,hope grandpa get well soon..and thats all..

i hate myself for been such a person,,now i really donno what i want..
fucking idiot johhny,,you really sux to the core,,you shouldnt be born into this world..
you are someone who spoil the image of the name JOHNNY..

YEAH!!!exam ends liao,,all my stress gone liao..muahaha..good work guys,,lets rock our 2 weeks holi man!!alright today after exam rush my exam rush down to my cousin de wedding solemnization at clementi de church,,church of holy cross..after that have my lunch there,,where a buffet is setup..after the buffet,,went to my big aunt's house to see the coulpe "jing cha",,and after have my tea break there..was like 2 hours or lesser from my lunch,,hahas..and do alot of chatting with my cousins,,and etc..and my sis,,mie and 3 other cousin went to yishun safra party world to continue our day,,we were very very very high man,,sing sing sing,,drink drink drink,,muahaha..we ordered 4 jugs of alcohol drink,,and i chiong with my cousin and sis,,total drink like 6 or 8 cups,,4 of it was one shot finish with my cousins and sis..my sis bf came in later,,where we about to finish,,went to have dinner after that,,and send everyone home..CONCLUSION: today is a fun and enjoyable day,,and a fucking long day for mie,,cos i left house 9 am and reach 12 am..hahas..

the week is coming,,and shall i or shall i not??things just get more and more complicated each day...

today is 1st day of exam,,tmd i duno some question..hais hais..after that have showmanship test,,that test is a sure flunk for mie..hahas..and then went to KFC have lunch and slack around till 2 pm den i return home..reache home around 3,,study study study,,went for a run again,,ran 2.4 in 13'21..OMG its fucking long..need to improve somemore..and now goin to continue mugging..hais hais..

im not happy at what she told mie..i want to know the exact answer..sob sob :'(..

today i woke up super late lah,,like around 11.30am,,i was suppose to wake up at 10 but i off the alarm and continue to sleep lah..ZzZ..woke have cereal,,den started studyin till around 2 pm and have a pack of maggie mee..and continue mugging..im so freaking stress up by this exam lah..tmd,,and went for arun just now,,ran for about half an hour and den ran back home,,was feeling so relax after that..and den have dinner and here i am to blog and goin to continue mugging at 10 pm..i seriously HATE exam!!lets FCUK OUT the exam..

im looking forward to next week,,yet another of mie say pls don come so fast!!and im so troubled by this stuff!!

saw this on the way home..hahas..stop abusing!!

yesterday went to east coast park,,and its like again??hahas..cos i just went like a week or 2 back..lols,,anyway i was invited by my cadets to join the NPCC unit BBQ..hahas..and we reach there like 5 pm..hahas..and meet LIYANA to go down together and few of my best NP buddies..hahas..
tood bad atiqah never go..so sad..and reach there 1st thing we do is play poker,,big 2..hahas..everytime play big 2 sure will KP here and there de..hahas..den after went for bicycle ride and eat and then bus back home..follow liyana to send the cadets home and after that send her home..shall post some picture later..hahas..back to study!!tmr is exam le..OMG!!!good luck to my friends..and LIYANA you are always been loved..hahas..

my heart is sososo confused now,,god must you let mie lead a life like this??i hate you!!!

this few days have been very tiring,,BUT i love it,,so i can sleep from night to morning without waking up..hahas..for the last past few nights have been waking in the middle of night,,as things just pop into my heads soooo suddenly..alright,,anyway,,since today is father's day,,went out early morning to sin ming road for breakfast,,have bah kut teh and duck soup and pig head meat,,it was so delicious..after that i went to CWP to buy father's day gift,,i was able to find the digital photoframe,,(at the 1st sight i saw,,my impression was,,bloody hell,,it was so nice an attracted my attention lah)but it was far too exp,,cos my cousin say she can buy like around S$200+ in US..but in s'pore it was sold at 329,,WTF..dam fucking big difference lah..alright so decided to head back to courts to buy a 200 bucks voucher..after that went home study and study,,manage to cover quite alot of the POC and bit of HS..but going to fight further later on..and my body is aching all over..

i really cant fight against this strong force,,the love is just so irresistable,,and you are just so cute..

just some photo to share,,enjoy:

today woke up at about 12pm +/-,,cos last night i slept at about 3am..hahas..do this for a reason de..alright den woke up,,eat bath,,com and study..only manage to study abit lah,,tmr need to chiong like one mad cow liao..SHIT..after that went out for a run and accept my friend challenge,,challenge mie to do 20 sit-up on the steepest board..hahas..long time no run liao,,and my stamina dropped le,,only manange to run for like 1km only,,FUCK..need to run at least once every week le..after went to have dinner with aunt and uncle,,and went home to bathe and watch tv after that,,and i reliased i have just wasted my sat like this..TMD..

today was like a worry morning for mie,,cos we have our 1st TR practical exam,,and i actullay pass the 1st round,,so proud..den school aftermath,,went to meet my secondary school fren at CWP seoul garden,,fucking hell it cost mie 30 bucks..of cost have to eat alot and etc lah,,neh neh..ok den during our meal was having lots of fun lah,,toking our fun in the past while in school and etc..one best thing today was i play with yong gui daring games..hahas..i dare him whoever loses 5 match of scissor paper stone will eat 4 egss with garlic and some stupid ingredient i found at the stand..hahas..and he loses to mie,,muahahaha,,im the champ..after that met xiao sao,,she is like quite good-looking(??) i think,,hahas,,and very sociable..after that went back yishun and slack abit before goin home..meeting my old fren is fun and etc..hahas..O ya thx bjorn,,for saying i look more handsome liao..hahas..

and as this days go by,,i want to find my old self,,but is seem so hard..and i find this love so irresistible..

today woke up at 10 plus,,and i play with the both KS after that have lunch and went to fren house and have fun i should say..but did some napkin folding and etc,,after that have dinner at his house and went to BPP for a walk and cab home..and on the way home think alot of thing and etc..im thinking what does LIFE means to mie??what does living in this world with means to everyone??and do people control their fate??and does people think before they do every single moves??afterall i came with no answer..and its test and exam tmr and next wed-sat..GOOD LUCK DHM0408C..

as day goes by,,i find myself living rather further away to any other people..and find myself more useless..

take care
~JohNnY~

yesterday is a history
tomorrow is a mystery
today is a gift

the secret ingredient is nothing,,there is no secret..
to make something special,,you have to believe its special..

this phrase is extracted from kung fu panda and i find it true enough..

monday got lesson and TR revision end school at around 7 plus..afterthat went to have pastamania,,and after that went home have a good sleep and woke up 10 the next day..went meet up with cousins to watch kunfu panda and den have mos burger as dinner,,and starbuck as dessert..hahas..and went home to have a good tight sleep after that..and as for today,,have pract. exam in the morning and after that went to fren house,,play mahjong and etc,,slack all the way till goin to 7 and return home after that for dinner and use com..finally got com liao,,thx to my cousin, telvin,,thx alot man,,but your lappy is fucking lag lah,,TMD..hahas..and lastly to ah bu: take care,,hahas..

people,,i wont be online from tmr onwards until 21st june,,due to some reason..contact mie via my handphone..

woah..ytd was a bad day,,cos it was a raining day..LOLS..i woke up was like 11 liao,,den took my breakfast,,listen to songs and bath,,after that off to tuition..on the way to tuition,,i nearly slip down,,was such an embarrassment,,OMG sooooo pai sey lah..hahas..den after tuition,,went to meet my frens at ECP,,and ton over night there..so shiok man..hahas..went drinking again,,and that was the last day i could drink,,after that have to wait for another month,,bcos i promise that COUPLE i wont touch it until my birthday..so birthday come faster okay??hahas..after that slept for like 2-3 hrs,,and den home sweet home,,was having some chit chat session with my xiao mei on the way lah,,we were laming here and there,,hahas..alright time to kill time again,,cos today is sunday again,,must kill time before going to grandpa house..ZzZ..take care ppl!!!
PS: i cant live without my cliques in school now..

sorry guys,,due to the com failure of oning it,,i wasnt able to post last few days..alright and today is the day that im aint looking forward to..cos we are goin to SAFTI,,when we reach there,,i feel kinda of weird and regret for going liao lah,,but den as time goes by,,it start to get fun but tiring as well..hahas..my group IC was kinda fun lah,,quite interesting and fun..after that went to JP have dinner at KFC,,and went to have beer after that,,cos i was feeling dam bloody stress up lah..TMD,,don wan to say it anymore le..anyway i decided le,,not going to pity that person anymore..and ppl im suffering from insomnia again,,last sleep i woke up for the total of 3 times adding up to near 1 hrs..TMD..duno why,,i need a doc soon..

TMD..today dam de speechless lah..reach school on time,,yeah!!!claps for mie..hahas..den after that start lesson on time,,follow by lunch,,FSM..during FSM,,can said something happened,,shant say it here..hahas..den follow by eng..and slacking at west mall..after that jiu home sweet home..OMG this few days,,while going home,,standing in the train i could oso fall asleep..TMD,,i dam tired during that period of time lah..today i almost sleep over,,nearly forgot to alight the train..hahas..after that reach home,,eat and com..thats all..and i duno why temper is rising in my body now,,feel so irritated by every move right now..

today bad day,,whole tio 10 DP,,tmd..nvm i oso dun care,,atmost whole class kana expel lor..hahas..and talking about my class,,i truely understand that what a real and fun class is after i go shatec..really fun and enjoyable..anyway this morning got up whole body aching,,wah who ask mie not strong act strong,,last night do 100 sit up and 20 pumping only,,but whole body ache..den during school today got FSM,,TR..FSM nth much lah..but during TR,,the china people was so diffcult to work with,,i got the feeling that they are acting big,,hais speechless to them..and today on the way home i think alot of stuff,,and i finally got through 1 thing liao..i just want to keep the relationship with her like what we are now,,no need to step into BGR,,cos i think i got the false feeling..hahas..so time to set off and find new gal who can give mie true feeling..hahas..nth much to say liao..

i duno what to say now..just want to say this to myself,,be mature enough to think what is the right choice..thats all..

im very very very bored..staying at home today is my most stupidest choice today!!!nothing to do at home,,hate it man!!!intended to study,,but my head was just too pain to study,,guess must be the drink last night..ZzZ......alright anyway i slept for 11 hours,,slept at 2.30 in the morning,,and woke up at 1 pm..slept for quite long liao..but my headache is just still there,,FUCK..den woke up wash face,,eat brunch,,den com,,tv,,books for few moments only,,cant stand it..and while facing com i have been downloading song for a long hours,,watching youtube,,chatting with frens,,chatting with kenneth and winnie was so much fun,,hahas..but we chat in different conversation today,,normally add them together and chat,,was so funny,,hahas..and anyway today nvr go grandpa house,,course he is off to china with my aunties and etc...i think next week should be going bahx,,now im waiting for mom to come back for dinner..hais so boring!!!dying liao lah..

today woke up 10am,,online awhile den bath jiu go out liao..was a very long day today,,left house at around 1045,,left to deposit money,,den went jurong point meet my clique for project,,after meeting them went to take pictures,,discuss,print out photo,,eat go library discuss again,,ended at around 6 plus near 7..left mie,,kenny&XIAO MEI,,settled dinner at pizza hut,,ordered a regular pizza,,6 pieces drumlets and hut's ocean platter..after that went to CWP meet my sis and cousin,,we went for drink,,i suggested for the drink part,,cos i feel like drinking,,hahas..each bought a can of 500ml carlsberg,,and i reached home like 1 am,,was really a long,,tired and happy day for mie..took lots of photos today,,but i only have few,, so lazy to post anyway,,hahas..alright,,time to sleep..good nights..take care people..and im glad to see CYNDEE mei de smile,,hahas.. =D